Today is the day! I just made it this morning with the scale balancing right at the 3/4 pound gain that has occupied my line of vision for the past 2 weeks. Not only am I not RTU for the weekend but I am finally at my 85%. The next step is to put in a privilege request form to move up to level 4b so I can roam the building at my leisure. I could, potentially, be annoyed that I have to wait through the Labor Day holiday weekend before they approve the request at the next staff team meeting on Tuesday…but I’m just not feelin’ it. I’m too happy that I got to where I wanted for so long to be at to let it frustrate me.

It was before lunch, only a few short hours since I had been weighed and realized my goal in the scale clicks, when Dr. G pulled me aside. With 85% comes the two major therapy studies that Columbia is doing right now: exposure and CRT. There are 4 weeks of each, 12 sessions apiece and each person eligible does both. Its a random draw as to which one you start with but I’ve got my fingers crossed for exposure.

First things first though. I won’t know which will be kicking me off until I’ve done whats known as research lunch for two days in a row. From what I’ve seen and the details I have been told by other patients who have already been through it I am curiously anxious to start. The breakfast and morning activities (or lack there of) prior to research lunch has me a little nervous towards my mixed emotions.

Its all very moderated so that each person doing the meal has the exact same thing for the breakfast leading up and the standard that they serve is much less than what our bodies are used to having. Every person I have seen with the diminished breakfast on their chosen research day ambles around the whole morning try their darndest to not gripe too much about the every persistent stomach pains growling audibly.

Aside from the miniscule meal, in order to keep everyone’s physical exertion and intake in check, there is no morning coffee allowed. So there goes the once daily caffeine boost we are each allowed and then we also omit the 10am morning Ensure as well. It may seem that being on so many calories each day would cause us to kneel and thank the ceiling at the cutback but thats just not so. All there will be is annoyance and hunger, hunger, hunger. We need all of those calories right now! Our bodies want them. They crave them! To top it off, on research lunch day, we are RTU till the afternoon meal is over. That means no fresh air, no trips to the store, no nuthin’.

Thankfully all of this only goes until 1:30 in the afternoon and, with my newly approved 4b status I already know where 2 pm will find me. I’ll be sitting in the upstairs cafe with my Boston Globe Sunday crossword book lounging in full relaxation mode. Oh, and one more thing, my nice caramel-colored steaming cup of coffee will be my teatime guest of honor.